Iwantwellness.co, Soon-to-be, ledtoshare.com

So here we are, 2021 and I feel like I haven’t written a blog in years. Lucky for you, it hasn’t been that long. Lucky for me, y’all are still here. (Thanks!)

So first things first, the name change. I’ve realized that as much as I don’t want to get rid of iwantwellness.co and everything that comes with it, that I do want to change it all, at least to a point.

Yes, I still want wellness. Always.

But I want to share what’s on my heart, more. You will still see food posts as I cannot resist. You will see lots of God, my favorite verses and songs, books of faith, and anything else I feel ledtoshare. See where I’m going with this?

You will still hear my stories, and struggles. I’ve bared my soul more than once on this blog and I will only continue to.

When I share the deep and dirty, it allows others to relate. If this isn’t connection in the world, (especially as we know it right now,) I don’t know what is. I chose to be publicly vulnerable and not because it’s easy (and sometimes it’s not fun either) but if I help one person, it’s worth it to me.

If I remind one person that God is always with them and it helps them through that minute, hour or day, it’s worth it. If I share my (new to me) workout struggles and it gets one person to relate and inspires them to get back into activity, it’s worth it.

If I write something and no one reads it, no one comments or posts, it’s still worth it to me.

Because I am ledtoshare. I pray that God blesses ledtoshare.com to whatever He inspired me to do it for. If nothing more than to share His word, His love, and my delicious food, then so be it=)

I’ve missed y’all and I’m glad to be back. (I know, back again HA.) Have a blessed Monday and expect to hear from me soon, and a lot more frequently.

XOXO, Emily

2019: The Year That Should Have Broke Me

I just refused to let it.
I thought this would be my best year yet.
I started out 2019 traveling the US with my husband, a dream we had made a reality. When our marriage fell apart in early March, I shared about my separation and pending divorce. And as if that weren’t heart-wrenching enough for one year..
I didn’t share that my younger, older brother, was released from prison for maybe the fifth time..? I’ve honestly lost count. (And well hoping for the best, I prayed not to have to live through the worst, again.)
I didn’t share that I had a friendship-ending falling out with my “forever” best friend of 20 years in April.
Or that my step-dad was diagnosed with cancer just before Father’s day.
Or they my mom was diagnosed with cancer in August.
These things shattered my world, one by one, seemingly again and again.
So I did what I do, and I cried. I cried the tears and I felt the feels.
Then, I pulled myself together, and found strength through it all.
I cannot say the whole year was a bust. That brother I talked about is the strongest, most resilient version of himself that I have ever known, and we are closer than ever.
And that friendship I lost in April was superseded by meeting, online and then in person, the most faith-filled, beautiful inside and out, loving and caring girl that I have ever met in my entire life the month before that, and I joyously call her best friend.

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My parents are still not 100%, but are both cancer-free, praise God!
And while I don’t know where I want to live or what I want to do with my life entirely, I completed training for my new career in September and have been a flight attendant ever since, a job that I love even more than I thought I would.
In 2019, I kept select people close and I kept God closer. I put my life 100% into His hands, like never before.
I was scared and felt lost, had no idea where to live, what to do, how to feel..or how to do it all earlier this year. So I let go, and I let God.
This isn’t some miraculous turn around story and I can honestly say I’m SO happy this year is almost over.
I can also say that my work life is pretty fantastic but the rest of my life is still messy, and it still hurts.
My parents are on the mend, and I’m beyond thankful for that. My ex BFF and I have completely severed ties but I know that the people I do have in my corner are my people, my family, and my heart. I’m so blessed to have them.
And no matter what, I choose happy everyday. I choose laughing and making new IMG_20191128_130023memories to crying and replaying old ones. I choose joy and excited anticipation for the future.
I know next year won’t be perfect, and I have no false hope about creating a life without ups and downs. But at the end of this year, I find myself with a new sense of calm, a reclaimed joy, and the ability to fully-focus on the good, beautiful, and abundant blessings around me.
I didn’t write this as a pity post, or to brag on how I came out on the other side but yet to share this very real and very raw side of me as this year comes to a close. We all struggle, and we all go through hard things, whether we talk about them, or not.
If you want to share or talk through anything, please reach out to me. I will be more than happy to listen, and show you love, to pray, and be an ear for you to talk to.
And please, give yourself to God, so that He can guide you. I promise you, you can get through the hard stuff. Always believe and stay full of faith, and happy almost 2020 friends=)

Scripture Sunday: Why Are You A Christian?

I’m a Christian because I want to be.pexels-photo-267559

I want to believe, and I have faith in God. I want a relationship with Him.

I am blessed and happy to know that there is already a completed and divine plan for my life.

I want to sit in peace and live with joy, everyday. I don’t want to spend my life worrying, stressed, and unable to see the beauty all around us.

That’s what’s available to us as Christians, believing in God, and having a relationship with Him. We get peace, contentment, joy, and everything amazing that He has created for us.

How lucky are we? How blessed are we?

If you’re reading this, I want to pray for you.

Dear God, Thank you for giving us so many amazing reasons to be a Christian. Thank You for being our God and all of the promises You have made to us. We are so blessed to have you. We are so blessed to have all that you have created for us. Please remind us that everything is this life is of You and it is all meant to be. In Jesus’name, Amen.

Scripture Sunday: Let Him Give You The Words

I cannot say how many times (ok, prob only a few, usually I know what I want to say) I’ve sat down to write this segment and not knew what I wanted to write about. But then, just a short while later, and I found myself finished with the post I didn’t even know how to start.

This is because these posts are only coming through me as a vehicle because really, they are coming from Him. And literally, thank God for that! After all, He is our strength, our protector, and our Heavenly Father, why shouldn’t our words come from Him?

So today, I give you this, let Him give you the words. Follow His plan and if you need to, ask questions! I am always asking Him everything, all day long. From small to tall, I talk to Him about everything. And I encourage you to as well.

If you’re reading this, I just want to pray for you.

Dear God, Thank you for always giving us the words. Thank you for guiding us to Your will and always protecting us and advising us in this life. We are so blessed to have you to come to for questions, advice, and strength. Like it says in Philippians 4:13, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Whether it’s getting the words on the page, taking time to keep and maintain health in our lives, or by sharing You with the world, we are so blessed to have You. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Scripture Sunday: Have Grace with Yourself

Because God does with us.

We are all too hard on ourselves, expect too much, and when we inevitably let ourselves down, we take it hard. We feel bad. We feel overstretched and like we’re never getting enough done, accomplished, or taken care of.

But this isn’t what God wants for us. He wants us to slow down. He was us to give Him more time. He wants us to spend more time with our people. And He wants us to not try to keep up with the outside world, because let’s face it, the outside world is crazy.

Ephesians 4:7 But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it.

I myself never live up to my own standards. I always have more on my to-do list and I am never spending enough time with Him. But you know what? He does NOT feel that way. Those standards we have and goals we want to hit, those are self-imposed.

God knows where we were going to be in this minute. He knew that we were going to just make that noon-deadline for work this last week. (Me!) He knows that we may miss a deadline in the future, and He tries to remind us that that’s ok.

Miss a deadline, just don’t miss hearing Him talk to you.

Forget an errand, just don’t forget to pray.

Forget to give yourself grace, but remember, He won’t forget to give you grace.

If you’re reading this, I just want to pray for you:

Dear God, Thank you for giving us more grace than we ever give ourselves. We are so luck to have You. You are always there for us and You always know what is happening with us. You are always there for us to talk to, cry to, yell at, or laugh with. You always support us no matter if times are good or bad. You always love us and we thank You for that. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

 

 

Scripture Sunday: Stronger by Mandisa

I love this song. In fact, it’s my favorite Christian song and has been for a while.

This song reminds us to hold on, whether we are being pulled under the waves or poured on by rain. Just because the days are hard and we are hurt and crying, that doesn’t mean that God’s not right there. He knows what we are going through, He knows we are struggling. He is always there to listen to us, we just have to talk to Him.

He is always there for us. And all we have to do is let Him be.

‘Cause if he started this work in your life

He will be faithful to complete it

If only you believe it

He knows how much it hurts

And I’m sure that He’s gonna help you get

Through this

These are my favorite lines in Stronger. I love to turn this song up, belt it out, and keep it on repeat. Have you heard this song? Do you love it as much as I do?

If you’re reading this I just want to pray for you,

Dear God, We want to say thank you for being there for us whenever we need You. Thank You for the amazing Christian artists in this life that share their experiences and songs and are relatable and comforting to those around them. We know that You are there for us, no matter what kind of mood we are in or what we may have said or done wrong. You are an amazing, all-powerful God, and we are so blessed that You Have our backs! Praise You! In Jesus’ name, Amen.